Lyrics from "Moana"
I've been standing at the edge of the water
Long as I can remember
Never really knowing why
I wish I could be the perfect daughter
But I come back to the water
No matter how hard I try
Every turn I take
Every trail I track
Every path I make
Every road leads back to the place I know
Where I cannot go
Where I long to be
See the line where the sky meets the sea
It calls me
No one knows how far it goes
If the wind in my sail on the sea stays behind me
One day I'll know
If I go there's just no telling how far I'll go
I know everybody on this island
Seems so happy on this island
Everything is by design
I know everybody on this island
Has a role on this island
So maybe I can roll with mine
I can lead with pride
I can make us strong
I'll be satisfied if I play along
But the voice inside sings a different song
What is wrong with me
See the light as it shines on the sea
It's blinding
But no one knows how deep it goes
And it seems like it's calling out to me
So come find me
And let me know
What's beyond that line
Will I cross that line
See the line where the sky meets the sea
It calls me
And no one knows how far it goes
If the wind in my sail on the sea stays behind me
One day I'll know
How far I'll go
Lyrics compiled by Disneyclips.com
We went to a Moana party about a month ago and before the party, I was given the song to introduce to Daelyn in case she hadn't been aware of it so she could sing during the activities.
So while we drove around on Saturday it was on repeat and so I really go an opportunity to listen, hear.... chew and then embrace.
Are you one of those who have tried hard to align, to fit in, to dim yourself or change your dream to make it fit with what you see around you?
I don't know that I have always felt this way but I know I have some dreams and the details attached to the Dream seem so "extra". Like I look around and see others that are similar to my projects/goals/vision and think, "no! Not that like that! "
“No, not like that! That’s not quite... “it”.”
Don't get me wrong, I am not saying they are doing it wrong but I see overlap in what I want but as I try to wrap my head around and plan or dream some more... the models I see in my head... Just. Doesn't. Match. So I find myself looking out. Deeper. And in a lot of ways second guessing myself.
Words I fight are ones that society uses to make people feel bad about their standards. Yes, the words emerged for a reason and I'm sure there are negative extremes for every action and within every group but more than negative extremes, I think the words were designed to silence and muzzle. To maintain status quo and resist growth, maturity and expansion.
you know: Fight change with all we've got.
"You/she think she's better than us."
"Bourgeois" pronounced boogey
"Why you have to have all that?"
"Nothing is wrong with ___________" insert the average or popular option here.
"Stop being extra" or "why you gatta be so extra?"
And I'm taken aback that while I type this up, I uttered one of these phrases to my daughter.
:Clutches pearls:
You see my daughter is being trained daily by me. While she is a splitting image of her dad and is similar in some natural propensities (e.g. The popular one), I am intentionally raising her to not dim her shine. And while I teach that, I also have to ensure my default responses when I am fatigued, annoyed or distracted counter all that I support.
Reality is... Pioneers. History Makers very rarely fit the mold.
Its always the square peg in round hole phenomenon. And I've been feeling like this more and more lately
I'm still generally not comfortable with where I divert from the norm or what is "expected". I'm less of a pushover about it now, but in some ways, I have always been strong in will. You see, once I commit, I commit. What I personally struggle to overcome is owning it.
Being confident about that little twinkle, that makes me, me.
The twinkle that motivates a different way of thinking, being and doing. That twinkle that is purposeful as I know that there is a gift and a purpose that the world needs. The same is true for you. What calls to your heart?
that nagging, can't-shake-it yearning...
Go ahead. answer it.
and shine.
Grace, peace and love,
Dr Gia